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Thursday, December 22nd, 2005
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9:25 am
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Stream of consciousness, for the heck of it.
Eyes. Brown and gold, glowing. Beautiful.Sunshine in her hair the flowing locks catch my attention.
Walking by with such grace and precission, almost floating, flying. Like an angel. Everything I want to say, all the words and feeling I hold inside. The words the sentences stick to my tongue, not able to spit them out. Mouth is dry. Wanting so bad for her to know my true feelings but unsure of her reaction. Should I risk it, should I take the chance. Risk loosing everthing we already have. The friendship and comradery we already share. Despair sinks in, and I lose that dream. I am too afraid to tell her, what really wants to hear.
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| Friday, December 9th, 2005
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11:52 am - Almost Perfect
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"Almost Perfect"
Maybe her eyes are just a little bit red
Almost all the time
Maybe her hair, it smells like cigarettes
When I climb into bed with her at night
She don't wanna try
But this just feels so right
She's almost perfect
She is so close to being everything
She's almost perfect
But she's not, she's not mine
Maybe she knows she drives me crazy
Just bats her eyes like she's my baby
Maybe she's quick to let her tongue fly at me
She's not the most proper lady
I'm the one to blame I know I caused this crash
So now I wander in this mess
Int this lake of sour mashed
Through my head the notion that
Maybe she's not quite honest with me
Almost all the time
Maybe I know there's someone else in her life
When I climb into bed with her at night
current mood:  blank
current music: Ingram Hill- Almost Perfect
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| Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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2:35 pm - Feel Like a Dog
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Anyone ever feel like this...
When it comes to my family and friends...I feel like a puppy.
When it's time to play I am the center of attention. Everyone wants to talk to me and hang out with me, and all is good. But people quickly tire of me and look to find something/someone else to occupy their time with. I sit at the window and watch as you dissapear into the distance.
Like a puppy you can do what you wish to me. You can call me names, you can ignore me, you can even be abusive to me. But like a puppy I soon put it behind me and am wagging my tail when you return to me.
I think people notice this about me and take advantage of it a bit. They know I will always be there for them and they can just drop me off and come back and pick me up right where they left off...People know I will be there no matter what.
-Sounded better in my head.
current mood:  Betrayed (a bit)
current music: Staind- Right Here Waiting
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| Thursday, March 10th, 2005
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6:40 pm - Ever Have Life Just Go Poerfectly?
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I DO!!!!
Everything has just been on the up and up the last week or so. Not having to be at school untill 10:30 is a very welcome break.
Last weekend Pete came over and we played Resident Evil 4, fun fun. We went out and ate at Pizza hut with Candice and saw Constintine which was awesome. Saturday Pete, Candice, Carly, and I all went to the zoo and had a blast. All kinds of fun, and, um, momkeys with no taste. We all went to see the Jacket which was really cool, very witty.
Prom is Saturday and I am pretty excited about it. I got my tux back today and it looks great, thanks Candice!
Not a whole lot to say..Sad when you can think of thousands of words to describe your negative feelings, but very few to describe your most joyous.
Also, here is my warning label...Coincidence?
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| Sunday, February 20th, 2005
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10:43 pm
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seven things that scare you:
1.not being loved
2.Loneliness
3.Separation from God
4.being forgotten
5.centipedes
6.wasting my life
7.Bigfoot
seven things that make you laugh:
1. My buddies
2. Candice
3. Family Guy
4. any physical comedy
5. www.joecartoon.com
6. ignorance
7. www.StupidVideos.com
seven things you love:
1. Candice
2. love
3. faith
4. friends, really good ones
5. sponataety
6. Life
7. Legs
seven things you hate:
1. hate
2. stress
3. ignorance
4. loud people
5. racism
6. myself
7. Napolean Dynamie
seven things that make you cry:
1. seeing other I care about cry
2. Gladiator
3. other people's pain
4. The Green Mile
5. feeling alone
6. blame
7. losing hope
seven things you don't understand:
1. racism
2. philosophy
3. dreams
4. shells of people
5. death
6. Reality TV
7. Puppy Whirl.
seven things on your desk:
1. computer.
2. checkbook
3. phone
4. glass
5.carmex
6. notepad
7. stapler
right now you are:
1. tired.
2. hopeful.
3. content.
4. appreciative.
5. wanting a haircut soon.
6. talking to Candice
7. realizing how lucky and blessed I am
seven facts about you:
1. I am aparently good at making people laugh
2. I suck at protecting those I love from life
3. I hate working
4. I am in love
5. haven't been happier, or more ambitious, or more delighted, ever
6. I let people walk all over me
7. thought I hate being controlled
seven things you look for in the girl you like:
1. beautiful
2. gives great hugs
3. love me back
4. to be able to feel her love in her embrace
5. affectionate
6. tuff, playfull
7. perfect, God knows I found it
seven things you plan to do before you die:
1. get married.
2. love, love, love.
3. save a life
4. make sure those I love, know how much I love them
5. show Candice how perfect she really is
6. leave a mark on this world
7. live like I was dying
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| Tuesday, November 23rd, 2004
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12:10 am - Doing Great
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All went well today.
I didn't do any of my homework and have no idea where all my free time went today, but oh well.
I visited Candice at work. I am about to run out of reasons why I have to leave this house to "Get gas" or "Run to Wal-Mart"...but I will find a way to come see you as much as I can Angel, I promise.
All I can say is that I am feeling great, and finally the pendulum has swung back to a side that favors me.
Despite everything that is going great in my life...my family life still sucks...
"I'll be coming home
Just to be alone
'Cause I know you're not there
And I know you don't care
I can hardly wait to leave this place
No matter how hard I try
You're never satisfied
This is not a home
I think I'm better off alone
You always disappear
Even when you're here
This is not my home
I think I'm better off alone
Home, this house is not a home
By the time you come home
I'm already stoned
You turn off the TV
And you scream at me
I can hardly wait
'Til you get off my case"
current mood:  GREAT!
current music: 3 Days Grace- Home
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| Sunday, November 21st, 2004
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11:34 pm
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Little Moments
Well I'll never forget the first time that I heard
that pretty mouth say that dirty word
And I can't even remember now
what she backed my truck into
but she covered her mouth
and her face got red
and she just looked so darn cute
That I couldn't
Even act like
I was mad
Yeah I live for
little moments
like that
That's like just last year on my birthday
She lost all track of time and burnt the cake
And every smoke detector
in the house was going off
And she was just about to cry until I took her in my arms
And I tried not
To let her see
me laugh
Yeah I live for
little moments
like that
I know she's not perfect but she tries so hard for me
And I thank God that she isn't
cause how boring would that be
It's the little imperfections
It's the sudden change of plans
when she misreads the directions
and we're lost but holding hands
Yeah I live for little moments like that
When she's layin on my shoulder
on the sofa in the dark
and about the time she falls asleep
so does my right arm
and I want so bad to move it cause it's tingling and it's numb
she looks so much like an angel
that I don't wanna wake her up
yeah I live for little moments
when she steals my heart again and doesn't even know it
Yeah I live for little moments like that
current mood:  loved
current music: Brad Paisley- Little Moments
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12:06 am - Best Night of My Life
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I had such a great time tonight Candice! I hope you enjoyed yourself as much as I did.
So yeah, just got back form the movies with Candice..got free passes to another movie because the digital projector was broken so we watched it on film, didn't notice much.
You know, its really nice when you care about someone, and you can feel that they care back. I finally think I know what that is like.
Candice, you are the best cuddler ever! Thats my favorite thing in the whole world! The sour patch kids was a nice touch, lol...YUM!
We really need to do that more often, gotta use those free passes eh?
Hows next weekend? Or maybe even sometime this week after we get out for school? We need to plan something else...
I kinda keep rambling on about everything, lol, I'm really tired you will have to excuse me, and I have to be at work again in 7 hours...so I think I am gonna cut it off here soon.
Also, the Arby's was GREAT!!!
Candice I just want to let you know that I love spending time with you, you are the sweetest person I know.
I leave you with this...well, we will call it an analogy.
If you know me well, or have been keeping up with me as of late, you might get this...if not, you are out of luck.
My whole life I have been falling
Gaining speed and watching helplessly as everything passed me by
I'd see it, reach for it, but by then I was too late and it was long gone
So downward I looked, waiting for something solid to stop my falling
I thought I saw it once
Closer and closer it drew to me
I could invsion myself on solid ground, able to live again
But when I got there, I fell right through
Heart broken I looked up
While all I could do was watch the false ground fade away above me
Now once again I see ground fast approaching,
Should I brace for impact?
Or just keep falling?
current mood: take a wild guess
current music: Billy Jean- Michael Jackson
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| Thursday, November 18th, 2004
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10:38 pm - Really Anticipating Tomorrow
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I am really looking forward to tomorrow night/evening. IT IS GOING TO BE PERFECT! We did change the day to make it a lot easier on ourselves. Candice you are a genius I don't know where I would be without you.
Now, what to wear? AND MY HAIR...hmm...up, or down... I kid, I kid.
Other then that, not to much.
Got home from work aboot 30 minutes ago.
I sparred with 2 people from work in the parking lot for about an hour...I was afriad someone might think we were actually fighting, but it was a lot of fun.
Got some math and economics homework to do, so I had better get going.
Oh how you sparkle, and oh how you shine.
That flush on your cheeks is more than the wine.
And he must do something that I didn't do.
Whatever he's doing, it looks good on you.
You look so good in love.
You want him, that's easy to see.
You look so good in love.
And I wish you still wanted me.
He must have stolen some stars from the sky,
And gave them to you to wear in your eyes.
I had my chances, but I set you free.
And now I wonder why I couldn't see.
You look so good in love.
You want him, that's easy to see.
You look so good in love.
And I wish you still wanted me.
Darling I've wasted a lot of years not seeing the real you,
But tonight your beauty is shining through.
And I never took the time to let you know,
So before he takes you away please let me say.
You look so good in love.
You want him, that's easy to see.
You look so good in love.
And I wish you still wanted me.
current mood:  excited
current music: George Straight- You Look So Good in Love
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| Tuesday, November 16th, 2004
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11:50 pm - Great Day!
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School was decent.
Had a tiresome long trec across the frozen, barren wilderness between the AMP and the school.
Finally think I passed a math test, but failed my Macbeth test in English.
Bought a guitar from Jake, I need him to help teach me how to play tho.
Went to look for Acton Automotive to fix my heater but I couldn't find it, so more of me freezing my keester off.
Visited "Anonymous Poster" today at work. I wanted to surprise her so I tried to hide behind a customer, but the lady wasn't fat enough so she spotted me.
I gotta tell you, even the short walk to go get the Chinese food was great. Every step with you, my arm holding you close, was like strolling through heaven a footstep at a time.
And the hugs, I miss those so much! I need one now, I need them always.
I can't wait to see you again "Anonymous Poster"...lol This weekend is going to be great!!!
"Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why
If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good things)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)
[Chorus:]
You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you
[Verse 2:]
Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know"
she thinks i walk on water
she thinks i hung the moon
she tells me every mornin
they just don't make men like you
she thinks i've got it together
she swears i'm as tough as nails
but i dont have the heart to tell her
that she dont know me that well
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms
she dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
sometimes she cries on my shoulder
when she's layin next to me
but she dont know that when i hold her
that she's really holdin me
holdin me
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms
she dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
yea now the funny thing is
she thinks she's the lucky one
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms
she dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
She thinks i walk on water
She thinks i hung the moon
If you are looking for answers, I ain't fot em.
current mood:  is he Mr. Griggs in disquise?
current music: She Thinks She Needs Me-Andy Griggs
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| Monday, November 15th, 2004
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11:22 pm
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Hey Hey Hey!
Got my ACT scores back today, got a 25 so thats not too bad.
Really REALLY REALLY REALLLY REALLLY! etc, etc, looking forward to this Saturday...
It's gonna be awesome...
Also, it was nice to be on the other end of the spectrum.
The other day, I pulled over a cop. YES! I DID!
I was leaving Del Toros when I see this cop car go by that has like a 5 foot branch leaves and all hanging from underneath him. So I pull out behind him and put on my flashers and flash my lights at him... He pulls over by Buck Creek and I pull in behind him. He gets out of his car and I get out of mine and he like has his hand on his gun...I was like..oh crap! I told him he had a branch hanging from underneath his car and he gave me this funny look. He finally knelt down and looked all the while keeping his hand on his gun and one eye on me. Then he thanked me and all that...but I still thought it was cool to pull over a cop.
Not to much going on.
Chilled with Pete today and played some Halo II...fun fun.
Just really excited about this weekend....
current mood: filled with anticipation!
current music: Techno Version of James Bond Theme- Moby
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| Sunday, November 14th, 2004
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10:59 pm - Great Weekend
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Another great weekend for sports for me. Auburn owned Georgia, and Pittsburgh owned Cleveland...great stuff
Got to hang with Jake last night while we slaved over my mom's tired old computer trying to get it to not be retarded.
Had Saturday off so Jake and I watched both games. Sorry Jake about Bama...but hey, at least you can be happy por moi oui?
Really looking forward to next Saturday. I think life might just be back on the up and up!
Hey you! I know you are reading this! WE ARE GONNA HAVE A GREAT TIME! OR MY NAME ISN'T, blast...whats my name? WHATS MY NAME!? oooh yes...SEANZIE!!!
All in all I am feeling great now...!
Got that "On top of the world" kind of feeling now
just hope I don't fall off...
Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures and
Twenty four tries
Twenty four finds me
In twenty-fourth place
Twenty four drop outs
At the end of the day
Life is not what I thought it was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago
Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
There's twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong
With all my excuses still twenty four strong
You see I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out
When You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And You're raising these twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
All of my symphonies
In twenty four parts
But I want to be one today
Centered and true
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
You're raising the dead in me
Oh, oh I am the second man
Oh, oh I am the second man now
Oh, I am the second man now
And You're raising the dead in me yeah, yeah
I want to see miracles, to see the world change
Wrestled the angel, for more than a name
For more than a feeling
For more than a cause
I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You
And You're raising the dead in me
Twenty four voices
With twenty four hearts
All of my symphonies
With twenty four parts
Life is not what I thought it was, twenty-four hours ago
Stil I'm singing, Spirit take me up in arms
I'm not copping out
Not copping out
Not, I'm not copping out
current mood: (ponder, you know you want to)
current music: Switchfoot-24
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| Thursday, November 11th, 2004
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10:15 pm - Lightening Can Strike Twice
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I haven't updating in a while because besides work and school, I have been playing Halo II like crazy! Pete and I played untill like 4 or 5 this morning...good times.
I am probably going to be the only senior at school tomorrow..but... I have like 3 tests tomorrow and with my work schedule, 35 hours and up a week, I won't have time to make up those tests.
Other then that been a pretty normal few days.
Why are girls hands and feet always so cold? Do they lead straight to their hearts?
Oh, and about the lightening striking twice? I split my pants again at work!?
"Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning
So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep
It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray
CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there
Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded
I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train
Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it
CHORUS
Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain
Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same"
Sad thing is, this song has made me cry since I was about 4
current mood:  complacent
current music: Soul Assylum-Runaway Train
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| Sunday, November 7th, 2004
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10:49 pm - Pittsburgh-27, Philidelphia-3
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The unstopable Iron Curtain of the Pittsburgh Steelers dethrone the last undefeated team in the NFL by absolutely punishing them! TO was kept to under 30 yards and he finally shut his big baboon yap!
This weekend was great except for some tragic news I heard last night.
A friend of mine, I knew him from work and previosly he was my workout partener in football in middle school...well..anyways...
Friday night someone broke into his house and murdered his mother. I don't know how, who, or why...but it happenend.
I am still numb to the thought of it, I never thought something like this would happen to someone I knew or was connected with, but it did.
If you know who I am talking about, please keep the name a secret...The last thing he needs is everyone knowing about it and reminding him of it. And all of you reading if you know him or not, please offer up a prayer to him and his family, because I am sure he needs as many as he can get.
Also, I am completely sore from work. We moved so much furniture around today it wasnt even funny. I had to carry this heavy steel safe across the store, no telling what it weighted but it was a buttload.
Got molested by all the girls at work...too bad none of them are hot..except maybe this new girl...
But, I gotta say I appreciate the attention. I neck massage I won't pass up....
Well, I gotta get to sleep...I'm Beat...
""We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about
When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember but I know that I can't go back
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about.
Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care Say you won't care
Try to avoid it (try to avoid it) but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing
There's one thing I can do nothing about"
current mood:  sore
current music: New American Classic-Taking Back Sunday
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2:04 am
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Just got back from watching The Incredibles with Matt, Jake, and Jill. IT WAS GREAT! Pixar has another hit on its hands.
My date however didn't seem to enjoy it well. Matt was as cold and dark as the night outside...I hardly knew him any longer...j/k
Day went great! Long day at work but it went by fast. Got a nice computer chair for cheap. 150 dollar chair that I got for 50 dollars... Only thing I can complain about is it leans to the right just slightly...no big deal.
Other then that, I don't have too much to say.
Going to bed now, gotta be up for work in a few hours.
She rolls the window down
And she
Talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl
current mood: he even has my goatee
current music: Evan and Jaron- Crazy for this Girl
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| Thursday, November 4th, 2004
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10:23 pm
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Just got back from work...and have a great story to tell.
All in all today was good... School was easy...nothing really special.
Well I was at work and I noticed this pretty girl over by the toner looking all confused. She was like crouched down on her haunches looking at the bottom row.
So I walk over there and I go to squat down to talk to her...and..."RIIP" The seam on my pants in the crotchal region rips wide open like the size of a tennis ball. Now being suave as Brad is, I just acted like it never happened and continued to ask her if she needed help. She told me what her printer was and the toner she needed all the while staring at the gaping hole in my pants. After we found her cartridege she thanked me for my help and left... Then I just bust out laughing... It was great!!!
So not so bad. How is everyone liking my new icon pics? I have a cool one to use as the background like Amber did, but I don't know how.
My favorite poem-
"If I could be anything,
I'd be your tear,
Born in your eyes,
live on your cheek,
and die...on your lips"- Unknown
current mood: amused
current music: Better- Cowboy Mouth
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| Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
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8:56 pm - Paint It Black
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Well... Don't have a whole lot to say.
Today was fine I guess.
Still hard to go on talking to the one I lost as if nothing ever happened at all...but...Who knows, must be someone out there who is meant for me...
Might be getting a job at Home Depot making more then at Staples here in the next few weeks...fingers crossed!
Right now I have no money because I am inbetween paychecks. Got my last one from Winn Dixie and they hold your first one at a new job for like a week so I am flat broke till Friday.
Been playing Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas a lot lately...sure makes me feel better after 2 hours of beating hookers with a shovel...*sigh*
I look into your eyes
as blue as the sky can be
and all I see inside of them
is emptyness for me
your cornsilk hair
so light, so fair
I long to run my fingers there
your gentle skin
so soft and golden
your hand I wish
that I was holding
So sweet your nature
and true your soul
I wish that I could play your lovers role
Your softest touch would make me whole- Me
" see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore, I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
I see a line of cars and they're all painted black
With flowers and my love, both never to come back
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away
Like a newborn baby it just happens ev'ry day
I look inside myself and see my heart is black
I see my red door and I must have it painted black
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black
No more will my green sea go turn a deeper blue
I could not forsee this thing happening to you
If I look hard enough into the setting sun
My love will laugh with me before the morning comes
I see a red door and I want it painted black
No colors anymore I want them to turn black
I see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes
Hmm, hmm, hmm...
I wanna see your face painted black, black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun, blotted out from the sky.
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted, painted black, yea"
current mood: depressed
current music: Paint It Black- Rolling Stones
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| Tuesday, November 2nd, 2004
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9:03 pm - Bush for Pres!!!
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So far Bush is winning 52& to 47%. Hope we settle this tonight and don't have to go through "Indecision 04'"
Wish I would have found somewhere to register in time, but I forgot all about it lately.
I have been very forgetfull lately.
Still pretty broken, but I am getting there...
Good day tho, I don't have any homework and dont have to work today, so thats good.
Well thats about it for me...
I am gonna go watch the election coverage.
"I can't breath at all
It hurts to think
that a sound could heal my wounds
feeling I've been betrayed
Black Sunday still burns you in my thoughts
I can't sleep at all
Now you're gone away
I can't fake this anymore
Guess I could blame it all
on God's game
or explain what my life's for
[Chorus]
Caught in a winters rain
I can't remember a word you said
Take away my fear please hold on to me
I'm falling
Falling
I will trade it all
for another day
just to feel you and your warmth
but even pictures fade
Black Sunday still burns you in my thoughts
I can't see at all
did you fly away
Did the stars shine bright for you
Guess I could blame it all
on God's game
it was fate that carried you"
current mood:  wating on the election outcome
current music: Cold- Black Sunday
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| Monday, November 1st, 2004
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10:49 pm - It's Official....Alone Again Tonight
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Well I just got back from work about an hour ago..so..that's that.
Got Adobe 7 for free, its like a 700 dollar program, so thats cool. Hope to learn how to use it and maybe color some of my drawings and such.
School was normal...I guess.
I did find out more bad news. It is official, the girl I have been chasing all this time is dating that guy from the football game. At least I know I'm all alone again, and not having to wonder any longer.
It does kind of suck that she didn't let me know earlier... But one thing I do wonder.
Did she know that I cared for her so deeply? I mean...It's not so bad if she didn't know, but if she did and didn't care that she crushed me, then...well... I don't want to think about that.
Well so now I am still alone, still cold, by myself.
I just wish I knew why no one cared for me. If I knew I would change it in a heartbeat. I wouldn't wish this loneliness and pain upon anyone.
Well, thats about it again. A story of shattered dreams and lost hope...
"How can you just walk away from me?
When all I can do is watch you leave."
"And you comming back to me, is aggainst all odds
thats the chance I've got to take."- Phill Collins, Aggainst All Odds
current mood: depressed
current music: Aggainst All Odds-Phill Collins
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| Sunday, October 31st, 2004
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10:58 pm - Pretty Good Weekend
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My weekend went perfect in sports...
Auburn...nothing more to say
And the Steelers, sweet jeebus!!!
The Steelers beat the Patriots who haven't lost in 22 straight games. They didn't meagerly squeeze by, they owned the whole game. I watched some of it at work and caught the very end of it when I got home.
Work was easy...and long...
8 hours today and 10 yesterday, but hey, I need the money.
Went and saw "Saw" (haha) on Saturdat with Matt and Natalie. It was honestly one of the freakiest and most sinister movies I have ever seen...IT ROCKED!!! I swear Natalie jumped like every 30 seconds since the previews...Matt did a few times too...and..well.. I did once that I remember...damned closets!
Can't print my stocks stuff for Mr. Davis as my printer is...is... BWOKEN!!! PORKWAH!?!?...but...maybe I can find time to do it tomorrow.
All it all...was a good weekend.
"There's a light in your eyes,
that I used to see,
and a song in the words,
that you spoke to me,
Was I wrong to beleive,
in your melody?"
"Theres a light in my eyes,
thats too bright to see,
and a PAIN in my heart,
where YOU used to be,
'cus I was wrong to assume,
that you were waiting here for me,
theres a light in your eyes,
did you leave that light burning for me?"
current mood:  good, still hurting tho
current music: Light In Your Eyes- Blessid Union of Souls
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